who the — gets upset and cries and gets frustrated on her 18th birthday?
first and foremost, the fact that cts are starting in 2 days doesnt appeal to anyone.. + withdrawal symptoms and anger and shame and hopelessness that comes from a 1-sided (as i can see it now) crush.. + mood swings that make no sense, limiting my ability to study and concentrate + piling work unstudied + mummy’s hurtful and spiteful remarks about me like wth..
saying i only care about $ and have no regard for family, and that i treasure friends more and cant even stay at home to study all the time (when i only went out thrice in 10 days to study in school) .. like wth.. she keeps saying things like “birthday, i cant even be bothered to celebrate.. she only wants to celebrate with her friends. give her angpow or make her new specs (any amount)”
WTH am i that money minded????
am i that unfilial?
obviously not right..
ahh forget it.. she can say whatever she wants already.. i better learn to not let it have any effect on me.. i will just continue my own life..
today i was quite down.. i just felt like hiding in a hole, retreating from the world, staying a bachelorette or sth.. and just forgetting about him and living my life.
kept seeing ants around so i got sick and went to check up ants in the online bible thingy
proverbs 30:25
“ants are creatures of little strength, yet they store up food in the summer”
jasmine green tea on my table, pile of white bio notes, freshly printed on the other side, comp in the middle, driving me crazy
Mots-clefs : rants
